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she longed for the old him. one who would greet her morning cheerfully and reminded her always that she is loved. because he knows he loves her fully that he doesnt even know how and why and he doesnt know Allah's plan but he just loves her very much.

she longed for the old him. one who would look at her in the eyes and told her that she's beautiful. even sometimes he got mad when she's being extra in her make up since it could attract other guy. she used to just laugh it off  and told him that it's just him that she loves.

she longed for the old him. one who would turn off his play station when she called. she will be sorry but he would just tell her that he's done already with his game though she knows that he just started. at that time, he didnt know that she smiled and whispered thank Allah for hundredth of time for finding him to her.

she longed for the old him. one who would hold her hands whenever they were, be it in campus hall, mall, busy street, he doesnt mind. when she would rest her head in his shoulder inside a car, his hands would stroke her cheeks and plafully pinch it to mock her chubby cheeks. she would always got mad and tell him that she doesnt have chubby cheeks and they would argue and laugh it together.

she longed for the old him. one who would worry all the time. when she hasnt replied his message for half or an hour. he wouldnt hesitate to call her multiple times just to make sure that she is alright.

she longed for the old him. when he made her feels that she's needed. she wouldn't mind if he calls in 3 in the morning and he told her that something's bothering his mind. she wouldnt mind if he called her in the morning even she has to get ready for work. it is okay baby work can wait but when someone is upset, that can not be waited. so she wait. until he told her all of his mind. she was happy because she's needed and would be more than happy to help him. but all she could do was just giving him advices and some words to sooth his mind. and she couldnt thank him more to make her feel that way.

she longed for the old him. one who would make her the happiest person on earth for having such a care partner who would never stop nagging her to drink a lot of water since she always forget to have one, to eat thrice a day on time so that her maag wouldnt bother her, having vitamins on a daily basis so that she could be healthy for her busy schedule all day, and to use face mask when she's riding with ojek online since a lot of drivers have been texting her after the ride.

she longed for the old him. one who would look sad and upset when it is time for them to be apart after campus time or after a date. one who would get all excited to meet her on weekend just because meeting her on campus 5 days a week was not enough. one who plan a future for them.

she longed for the old him. who would never ruin her.