WHOAAAA

if i were able to scream out loud as the title mentioned, it'd be veryyy nice (srsly). i'm having tryout from today until the next 2 days (include saturday.....) hang on, brain!!! idk why but knowing i'm in the 12th grade now is even not enough to motivate me to study harder and harder :( (so sad) 2 days ago, me and my friends just had a motivation seminar from a motivator. he's greaaat! he told us not to study in night but in 1/3 of night and do pray tahajjud diligently and i was so excited! it was succesfull for me to do that 2 nigths bfr but it didn't work last night (got oversleep omg) and wish me luck for tonighttt.

oh! and i just registered sbmptn (it's like university entrance test) but haven't do the finalization. THIS is what really makes me confused all the time! this is gonna be my future if i were accepted in one of the universities i've been registered. so i should think over 1000 times to choose which one is the best for me and..... i did finally. bless me, god!

all the 12th grade things are just so complicated! i never though bfr that entrancing university is as hard as this *sigh* just fyi, you have to do your hardest work on this and never play with your choice! no no no! think twice or 100 0r 10000 or maybe a billion times bfr choose before you regret on it.

todays whispers: dear all readers, can you please pray for me for the next national exam? i'd very bery bery appreciate it if you would do and thanks before :)


p.s: for you, who have messed my heart up and down thank you :)

di-ar-i-way

the precious 2012

now listening: as long as you love me by Justin Bieber

can you believe that 2012 is about to meet its end? i can't. how fast the time flies. it's hard to believe that i have spent almost 48 weeks, 365 days, 8760 hours, ... minutes, and .... seconds (count it yourself) in 2012. i've through many bad and good things in this year and that was amazingggg, unforgottable. in 2012, i got the special age (my sweet 17) which means a lot for me, i had my best girls who have been accompanied me in sad and happy moments (sorry to disturb your ears too much of my complicated-love-stories zah, is :b:b), i through all the happiest things together with my classmate friends (love you xo muxxh), and for you who have invited me but i -accidentally- broke that :) 

i got so many lessons in this precious years and thanks god for keeping me and the world alive (who said that 12.12.12 would be the end of the world ha?). ipromise to self that i will learn from my mistakes in this year to make a good change in 2013 (wish me luck!) :D

new years identical with making some wishlists to do better in. i think i don't need to write my wishlist here bcs we all alrd know that we should do 'BETTER' in the next year. but if i should rank my wishlist, 'being on time' is at the top of my wishlist hehehe. honestly, i'm not an on time person and it's so disturbing (for me and another person). let's give applause for my best friends, esp. aisyah who have been though enough to deal with my bad habit since a long time hihi *kiss kiss* wish i were able to change this habit in the next 2013 amien.

well, it's rainy seasons here in indonesia and floods are everywhere. let's pray the best for the victims and thanking god how blessed we are who are not the victims. anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013!

X

audrey

madness

dont ask how is my day because it just made my day worse than before. yap today is absolutely not my day! k lets check it one by one.

first, i hurt my friend by my words. of course i dont mean that. we just had jokes like the day before but idk that she's not in the mood or anything and now she got mad with me.dont blame me that much because i was trying to apologize but still....no respons. ok i'll try again later. and then we (i mean fe) had a problem about our plan to have together breakfasting. yeaa we want to have together breakfasting with my friends in tenth grade but it's just so so so complicated. gah! (please dont blame me too much now bcs there're another reasons to make me feel like a stupid luzer)

what else? one of my friends are having fight with her boyf and (no, she doesnt blame me here bcs i'm not 'exist' in this problem) asked my suggest. i'm trying to give my best suggest but she's still in her way. so i mean, why should you asked me but then you just decline my suggest? ok maybe i havent being like that but i'm trying hard to get that suggest so yaa i hope you'll minimally be nice with me. just so you know, i'm not that person who just listen your problem with a half of my ear. i will listen it pretty well and than give my best respons, so that you won't regret that you have told your problem to the wrong person!

oh one more! my cousins just made me to reboot my laptop in bad ways bcs he played games and made my laptop hang. wuffh please god, dont make this day worse than it. i'm in a god level of madness right now. all of those problem is like spinning around on my head. i have told you that i'm an over-thinker, haven't i? that's me!

enjoy your day people! (dont ruin your day. just. dont)

drey,
>:O>:O

it's over

and hi! holiday is over and tomorrow is monday. *sigh* honestly i'm not ready for school but i'm ready to meet my friends. i miss all of them so badly. i miss icut, arab, jelleh, idung, bella, tari, dora, bu aji, dayeh, winda, widi, putu, litha, izza, manda, uci, intan, lola, jawek, uray, stephie, tonang, ichwan, and all of the boys. i miss class, the tables, the chairs, the whiteboard, the infocus, the music (from RnB until dangdut), the laugh of someone's jokes, the talk when we have lunch together, the cheat when exam *oops*, ALL.

*it's a lie i'm not that happy honestly*

now i'm a 12th grader which is i have to focus study to face the national examination. omg i'm going to enter the college next years, time flies too fast! wish me all of lucks in this new grade! god bless me amin.


yesterday me and fams went to my cousin's new house and have a party. it was quite fun to meet all of big family. we talked, ate, and laughed as much as we can til my tummy is fully field (i can't feel my tummy last night). and then we went to my old house too because one of my cousins grandma is passed away. i had a really quality time with family last night. but there's a bit annoying too. honestly, i have to attend my friend's sweet seventeen birthday party that night, but blame it to traffvck jam. we just arrived home at 10.30 p.m. and that time, the party was over. it was almost midnight and it wasn't a good timing to come to ppl's home so i didn't join the party. so sorry yuli :-(

umm i can't understand about that guys mind. why are they so complicated? if i were a mind reader... sometimes i feel like he doesn't want me anymore in his life, but sometimes i feel like he wants me back (maybe i'm just too confidence or it's only my feel? idk) but it's rather to be friend than act like a stranger like this even each of us know, we don't. well, i wish for the best :D

and yeah! Ramadhan is coming!!! we are going to have a month fasting (wish it's really a month!). we're gonna have sahur at subuh, break-fasting at maghrib, pray tarawih after isya, until angbao in lebaran fufufu. and the most eagerly awaited in Ramadhan is *tara dung ces* ketupat! by imagine that, i can taste my drool's falling down. yum yum yummyyyyy. can't wait! thanks god i still able to meet your most precious month in a year. o:--)

enjoy your weekend folks!

its a life

*hugs for bloggie*
it has been 8493565954313130 years i never touched you #lebay but really, i do miss blogging so much. well , it seems like i miss anything but i back! hm where should i start? ok a week ago im done watch The Avengers & amelda. such a great mooovie and i promise i will watch for the 2nd part. and and and geezwhat? my schoool is not such a jerk anymore hoo-ho they give us short-holiday from thursday until sunday and it makes me feel like WAW ily school <3 ow yeah theres a bad news about the senior-i-like, he already has a girlfriend but dont worry its not love i have to him, it just umm like fans?! whatever forget him and find another HAHA. ok i have one honestly, hes the one i cant forgot for a minute, hour, days, weeks, months, and many times bhahaha. ok skip.

aah! i almost forgot. a few days ago i just got a little surgery in my left eye. the doctor said that it was an infection of gland in the eyelid. that was my first surgery of my life. and all my impression for that is HURT. it was hurt so much. could you imagine when your eyes are needles? its perfectly hurt huhuhu but i didnt cried (great!) i just hold the tears with my teeth gritted. and after all, she wrapped my eye with bandage and made me look like Jack Sparrow. when i sent my Jack Sparrow-picture to my uncle, he laughed and used it as his display picture (such a crazy uncle ryt?) but it has recovered now and ta-daaa my eye back to normal! thanks doc (but not for the medicine. did she think im be able to swallow all those fvckin big medicines?!?!??)

in this weeks, there are many problems come to my friends and their lovers. and im just a bit confused about it. they asked me for suggestion and i give my best resolution for them. but um i just feel this is so weird. im single and free, so why they asked me? but of course, im ok with all of them. i just glad to help people i love and see theyre happy too :--D

hoah i need to get back to my room and have some rests. there are too many things i should do 2morro (group  tasks. what else?).

Kiss!