the stories of 2k14

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hehe i know i'm sorry. i'm sorry for abandoning you, my dearest blog. it's been so long since the last time i checked on you. ok let's just get to the point. don't be mad at me, k? i have a bunch of stories that i'd like to share to you. it's too much i cant even think where will i start. my college life is good. AWESOME actually. i learned a lot in this 3rd term. we got new subject, new lecturer, and new experiences. how about the tasks? oh you don't need to ask honey, i have LOTS of them!


let's just start. 


i have 3 production subjects in this term which really driving me crazyyy. there's this task when we have to make an advertisement for final exam (you kno i'm a broadcasting student, no?) oh why i used 'we' instead of 'myself'? because we made it on a team. there are 10 persons in my team including me. after having hard times discussing about what ad we should make, finally we got one final decission to make: a public service advertisement about "Mother's Day". the storyline is a bit cliche but we make sure that the DOP is different. we need some properties, foodies, find the perfect talent, and even, we rented an appartement! this has been my first 'real-est' production i have ever been made (in high school, i made a lot of production too. but not as serious as this one. oh u didn't trust me? go check https://www.youtube.com/user/stispeter)

ok the production was going pretty good actually, until we got a problem (like what they said, "be careful with calm water"). after we shoot all the scenes we need, we checked all of them but we realized one scene has lost! we checked the memory and the laptop back and forth, but none has found. we even installed a software which (says of my friend) could find the file that has been removed, and after progressing it in the very long time, we did it! we found the file that we need! but unfortunately, the file is already broken and can not be fixed:( one of my friend who has a responsibility of that file (bcs he is the one who move the file) got panick and apologized many times at us. of course we forgave him! and after discussing it tiredly, my friend who is a director of the team, decided to re-take the scene. the lost scene is the one we shot in the appartment, and that is another problem. the appartment that we need is the same with the one we used before. but we've got a problem bcs the appartment has already booked with someone and we have to re-schedule to find the un-booked day and also re-schedule the time with our talent (the talent is our junior and he has class to enter too). and that was the hectic moment lol.

**what we learned: Always make a second plan. Don't be too panick bc it won't help anything unless making it more complited. 

and finally, we proudly give you our public service advertisement:

Konflik, Cinta, dan Rindu (Untuk Ibu) (i swear i tried to upload it many times but it always failed. oh and don't forget to hit Like k?)


other stories. not so long ago my whole family went to Puncak and have a family gathering a.k.a arisan hihi. and what i mean by a whole family is MY WHOOOLE family like everyone is coming. the weather was chilly but nice. we chatted at each other talk about everything, laughed and laughed, and eat anything. i really love gathering with all of them especially with my cousins at my age. oh and this happened just 2 days before the final exam start. holycrap? no. i have a lot of funnnn.

that was the story BEFORE exam. i have another one AFTER it too. i went to Anyer the day after the final exams end, which means BROADCASTING'S HOLIDAYY. it was makrab a.k.a malam keakraban actually, when all the newly broadcast student (our junior) made an event and invite the seniors to 'know' them well. it's like making a new link too. and this time they made it in Anyer, so we, as the seniors, went there together yeaay! 

our happy faces after final exams #sakitjiwawaku

another. i just watched Supernova: Ksatria, Putri, adan Bintang Jatuh like 2 weeks ago with my friend. and the movie was great. i lovee it. the movie is based on a book by Dee. the storyline is amazing, a bit complicated if you haven't read the book but you won't regret watching it! and last night i watched Snow White and The Huntstman like for a hundred times. i just can't get enough of chris hemsworth omggg<3<3 *re-watch again*

all above was some of my AW-some 2k14 yaaay

ps. if you're curious where i was at new years eve, i was at my bed. sleeping for a yearr lol.




happy new year 2015
xoxo,
drey

2014

I finally managed to get back into this, writing post in my blog. I know my blog is not as good as Brown Platform by Anastasia Siantar nor Weirdo In Pink by Jessica Xu (so there wouldn't be any of readers who will wait excitedly for my next post) but i kinda have nice feeling after writing down all activities i had during the day of uni or had some gossips with the girls hehe please mind some of my random blabs ppl.

Well, let's start with the most popular topic these days..... NEW YEAR! Yesssh it's the newly fresh 2014 people, when i can't sleep all nights in my room because of the sounds of fireworks wherever i hear around (sounds so anti-social huh?) Haha no lah i'm not that nerds. I just had no idea where to go in that traffic-everywhere kind of time. So i just stayed at home and watched some movies like 101dalmatians, step up, and ate lots and lots of boiled shell and stuffs. Oh and i sent my 'happy new year guys' voice notes to bestiest at 00.00 (it was really 00.00, i managed to check my watch twice before sent them) talking about the new year is not complete without rewatch the memory of last year. 2013 was great for me! It gave me lots of new experience as if the first time i knew how it is to be a college student, lived in dorm by myself (homesick is sux), used train to go to uni, new class new friends new college exam... they are new experience for me and i went through all of those fear-of-the-first-time succesfully well yay!! And of course all the best moments in high school were there too :(:( national exam, solidarity, graduation and all high school's stuffs are the best! I mean BEST, no one can beat the feeling of high school students #scored

There are so much things i learned from 2013 and hopefully 2014 will teach me better *finger crossed* HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014 pretty people! Let's hope things will get better this time ;)

Yours truly,
Drey

God's plan is always better

currently listening: i won't say (i'm in love) - Disney, Hercules

 feel so sorry for my blog which i haven't touch in month. don't know why but i'm not in the mood for post anything these past few days. but don't worry cause i'm here now! i just checked my email too this morning (since 32756350 days haven't touch it) and found a sweet surprise : Veren Lee commented on my blog! omagah i'm sooo happy! if you're not knowing her, go check her blog and find out how cool her style is. i'm a fan!

oh and by the way, i'd like to say HAPPY FASTING to all moeslem's readers! may we could pray better than the last Ramadhan, Allah forgive our sins and accept our fast and prayers amen ☺ this is our third day of fasting and there are still 27 days to go to reach the goal. wish i can do my best and get the blessing of this glorious month!

i realized that time flew so fast! it's like flipping your hand and tadda it is a half of 2013 and 5 months later we're gonna meet the new year of 2014. i mean hey, i feel like i just through this year yesterday. all the had works, do many tasks to prepare national exam, the last time together with classmates, register on university, all the fears to not pass national exam well, graduation, acceptance in fave university, reunion with classmates, and yadda yadda. all of them is what i've been through in the last 7 month of 2013 and i feel like... it happens! can't thank God enough, i feel blessed. 7 months ago, i still woke up at 5, prepare anything for school, wore grey-white uniform, met friends at school, studied and laughed at class, went home, did homeworks, and anything normal students do for highschool. and i'm like.... an abnormal who enjoyed her very-long-but-gonna-meet-it-ends-in-the-next-couple-days holiday and missing her classmates like crazy. lmao.

i just still can't believe it. we all know that God's plan is always better, but i just knew it right now. i never ever dreamed to live these months like this, but God does. like, when the first time i sat on 12th grade i'm way so scared of national exam (and it's 20 package of questions). i can't even imagine how could i pass it that well and now? i passed it. to be a part of yellow jacketers is always be a dream of me since i saw my cousin did her task in her room for faculty of economy of university of indonesia. um i forget how old i was that day, is it 8? let's just say i was in 2nd grade of elementary school that time. and the dream get bigger when i was in 10th grade in senior high school and had university visit to ui. i adore their building, their very large library, their green park, their....ah everything. and it's like dream comes true to be accepted in the university. i feel so blessed. God loves me and so do i. i should be more grateful over all things He gave to me in life. and stop sigh-ing hihi.



p.s: thanks Allah, i love You.


love,
audrey

p.s. i love you

i'm in love with romance movies. you've known about that, don't you? like what horoscope always say, virgo is such a romantic person hahaha. maybe that's why i smile randomly or bite my lips when i read or watch that 'sweet' part in books or movies (of course, drey. everyone must do that too, no?) i'm currently addicted to download old movies these times. yesterday i just downloaded P.S. I Love You by reading an article of best 20 romance movies. and gosssh i should recommend you this one because it really really sweets (with 's' because the sweetness is too much haha). i can't stop tears falling down my cheeks when i watch the first part of the movie. omg. the story tells about a woman's struggle to move on from her lovely husband who has passed away after lived together in 10 years. the woman named Holy, have no idea how her life would be without her husband beside hers. she just doin' nothing but singing and watching romance movie all days until her family came to her apartment to give her birthday presents on her born day. but her husband is the sweetest. he is like know that Holy can't do anything without him so, he decided to send her wife letters day by day and give her signs to do her daily life as usual. and finally her spirits all raised up again! she can walk through her 'new life' with positive way of thinking.

my favorite line of the movie:
Holy: every morning i wake up and the first thing i want to do is to see your face.

and noow i'm downloading another sweet movie called 50 days of summer! seems like everyone talked about this and i will feel like i'm such a nerd to not knowing this trend lol. and it almost reach 100% and i can't hardly wait to watch the movieee asdfghjkl. i'll tell you after watching it okay ;)


p.s:
* i've watched Refrain and do thrifting books as i've said in my latest post and geezwut? i've done that in one day. hi hip hurray!!!! and i got my first time using that famous transjakarta ahaha. well, so last year rite? nevermind, it makes me happy :D
** tomorrow my class gonna have bbq party and i've prepared 3 puddings for the dessert (yea at least i'm good at making pudding uh.)


happiness is that simple, right?

xoo,
drey

today, i'm....

i'm currently reading Lupus novel right now and it easily make me get addicted. eventho' it is really old novel but i still loove the whole story. the genre of Lupus novel is actually more humorous but we can find some serious blabs, the means of friendship, love story, high school, and so on. i read it from ebook since i only have two novels of it :( (which is very old since it was the heritage from my cousin and the paper can broke easily) Lupus novel came up from two different storyline, when he was kid or the Small Lupus and when he was grown up or Lupus. i like them both!! the way Lupus treat her girlfriend really makes me got envy. i even wonder if i have a boyfriend, he must be at least humorous like Lupus (and don't forget his coolest way on chewing gum). i can laugh until my stomach aches but sometimes you can see the tears flow down by my cheek just by read the novels. i'm thinking to have another series of Lupus' books but still have dilemma with my wallet condition (if you know what i mean). but i promise myself to add another Lupus novels into my books rack *pinky promise*

well, i played badminton with my friends from the first grade in high school at indoor gor. well, that didn't goes well as i'm predicted since i got soooo annoyed (don't ask me why. just. don't.) but after got my head (and heart) cold, i'm feeling way better :) the key is "don't listen to other, just believe in yourself". well, i'll make sure myself to keep that words inside my head everywhere and anytime i go! i will never let anyone mess my day just by acting trashy *inhale exhale*

p.s: i still have another dilemma, between watching Refrain or thrifting books. which one you think the best to go first?


enjoy your 3 months free, dear third graders (oops should i call you college students wanna be? :b)


drey,
xxo

talk that talk

hello. i finally back to blogging! how's life everyone? mine was not pretty good enough since i have a very long holiday but have nothing to do. but hoping yours is better :) firstly i want to congratulate myself to (finally) becoming a part of my fav university ever. yeap, i am the yellow jacket-gonna-be now! let's shout out loud 'hip hip hooooooorraaaaaaaay'. oh dear, you don't know (or maybe know) how superb happy i was that day when i opened the ui website, signed in, click the 'result selection', and finally see the 'Congratulation, you are accepted in University of Indonesia'. i can't breathe in seconds, just stared at my laptop's screen and when i got back my consciousness i automatically screaming like 'MOOOOM, I GOT IN MOM! I GOT IN UI!' and my mom when that time was about to pray ashar ran to get me and asked 'really?' after i nodded in, she hugged me tight and congratulated me. heheheh. eh, i really don't mean to show off or whatever you think i'm doing by telling you this good news. i just. i'm just about to write in my blog since i haven't touch it in ages *excessive* and the first thing came across my mind is this news. so i just type it here as what my mind asking me to hehehe. well, i can say i'm a bit relief this time because i don't need to join sbmptn or you can call that a written test to enter university. you don't know how many people who gonna join this test since this sbmptn is open to this year, a year ago, and 2 years ago alumnus of senior high school who haven't got the university. WHOA. i can't never thank God enough for this precious gift. BUT, for all my friends who study very hard for this test, my prayers goes to you all. hope you all can be the part of your favorite university, amen!

talking about friends, me and my friends had a plan to have an exchanging gift. yap but it should be handmade, no buy stuffs! it's our agreement to make the gifts by our own hands to exchange. it can shaped as a frame, pop up card, scrapbook, or anything handmade (sounds so fun, eh?) the reason behind this all is  because we're not gonna meet for a long time since we will separate into different university, so we have to have at least one thing to keep remember that we still have best friends out there. ugh so sad :( but the good side is i've done mineee!! i've made my special gift and it's shape is........ still a secret :b wait until the date is coming guys ;b ;b i can't hardly wait actually!

ah, talking about 'can't hardly wait', i have a list for that. and here's my can't-hardly-wait list:
to hangout with friends and exchanging gifts
to do a movie marathon (refrain, after earth, fast & furious 6, and any movies, come to momma deaaar)
to come to jakcloth
to life my self as college students (yes, yes, i can't wait)
to buy the newest edition of comic conan and my sweet kaichou (told you that i'm a comic maniac, yes?)
to buy old comics which is on sale in mall near my city
to re-watch SAO or Sword Art Online. i just really adoooore Kirito-kun besides Usui and Shinichi. oh, i love cool guys!! (have i told you that i'm an anime maniac too? if no, well, i'm telling you now :D>)
to download the next episodes of Slam Dunk (nah, this is my newest hobby rite now. Slam Dunk is my favorite anime gonna-be! yip yippiee)
to re-read some old novels and comics. (i like to re-read books when it is holiday and i get my bored life, just so you know. as long as it is not encyclopedia or any subject's books, it'll be all ok. usually, it is novels and comics. and you know what? i've done all ilana tan's books by  re-read it all only 4 days and each books i can done with only 3 until 4 hours before sleep. am i great, no?)
to see any comments you left in any entries i've typed :)

and things that make me happy these few days is: my comic collection reaches the number of 230! and still counting baby, do not need to worry ;)

okok, i think this is all i can say haha. tell me, how's your days so far? oh, and Happy Isra' Mi'raj day to moeslems all over the world!!

"Succes is that old ABC- Ability, Breaks and Courage." - Charles Luckman

ciao,
drey

inspiration

just realized that i've never have a 'permanent' inspiration in life, so far. i have ever inspire Ayuzawa Misaki who is the main character of my lovely comic 'My Sweet Kaichou' with her strength and high self confident to face anyy problems she had. and also to always be yourself because people will love you for who you really are, right? you should her the comic, it's so funny! and the guy main character is soooo asdfgjkl handsome omg.

but it is not the real one, i mean she's not real. i want to find my inspiration in a person, who live in a real world. i love to suffering internet and found many fashion bloggers, both local and international. and i waaay love to see their different fashion style. i have many lists of my fav fashion bloggers but i only inspire one of them a lot. she is the great Diana Rikasari!

here she is! the pretty, Kak Di :)

i adore her so much. she owned 2 shoe brands and the shoes are all beautiful. i want to buy one of their heels for my ceremony graduation but it has 14 working days to arrive at my door since i need it for the next 7 days. poor me ;(
she is such a suppa creative person  i've ever seen (not in person, only in blog)! and the most thing i like from her is she is BRAVE enough to be DIFFERENT. she is not afraid to wear any 'weird' look even she got many bad judges from 'unresponsible-big-mouths' and brave enough to judge to the right things. i like that! she always have little things to be happy with in many hard things to face in life. she through it happily and ended it well too. i love to read her life journey to be as great as now, and that things reallyyy inspire me :') and when it goes to her husband, oh gosh both of them are the sweetest! read her blog to approve it.

i realized that i'm just a girl who 'sigh'-ed much more than thanked Allah for what i have now. and i love her mind set in this post: here to click

things to remember:
when you see other people's fortunate life, don't just look up at theirs and adore them without do anything to change your life as better or more than them. it's a poor thing. go grab anything beside your hands and make magic with it! there's only a rainbow after thunderstorm right? you just have to find your own rainbow and remember, the way is not always go smoothly, sometimes it's complicated or maybe windy but if you try hard, believe that you'll find the best! cheer up ^^v

"Always have God in your heart, and you shall never worry too much." - Diana Rikasari

xoxo, 
audrey

don't grow up. it's a trap!

good news! i've passed those mess' (re: national exam) a week ago and it's a relief i feel inside my heart now. WHOPS not all relief. i haven't know what kind of score i'm gonna see in my report card of last semester yet. and well, i wanna share about that famous national exam in this year, 2013. i thought this is the worst nat-exam that have ever been happened in indo (if you know what i mean, indonesians). we have 20 package kind of questions which means we really are NOT allowed to cheat with the others. ups it's not the end until there, the question and answer sheet are in one package so to answer the question, we have to tear it up first. i mean, oh c'mon! 20 package of questions is more than enough to mess our brain and heart all up and down... but it didn't make matter since i've passed it (hopefully) well and swear to god  i'm going to enjoy my gonna-be-loooooong holiday now :) *thanks for all the prayers dear readers*

oh well, and today is zella's birthday! she is turning 18th today and i'm like 'oh c'mon dude, i just took a photo for my identity card of legitimatilly an indonesian and she is already 18!' time flew too fast baby. but after all, i had a good day. we ate pizzas and blew the candles (not we but she is) and walked and walked and sang in karaoke and back home. i gave her my handmade as a gift and i guessed she likes it *glad* can't wait for the next good day :)

but i feel like there's something missing here. i miss my all classmates like so much. we finally ended up being 12th graders. we are not required to study in our class anymore. no more homeworks, no more cheat, no more laugh in class, no more nag from teachers, no more fight, no more. oh so sad :,( before this, we want everything goes fastly, just for not doing assignments, studying, and yadda yadda. but after all have passed, we want it back again (not we maybe but especially me). i miss all the time, the memories. yap the memories. it will only be memories to keep in mind, will never be replayed. oh shittttt i hate to grow up. i've ever seen someone's quote said "don't grow up, kid. it's a trap" and i just realized it's a true. yes it is absolutely a trap :(

p.s:

things learned

i learned many things today. let's check it one by one.

first, don't be a mushroom. don't be a parasite. they can't live without another creature they suck into. well, you don't know how it feels when you wasted most of your time just to wait that person but that person left you, with anothers. you really give your honest trust for that person, but it's like 'who cares?' sigh.it is dissapointing. really. and that remains only regret. 'why didn't i go first?' 'why that person left me?' 'why should i wait?' that's only the left question in mind.

second, life changes and so does people. i knew this since loooooong time ago but just felt it now. i have that one friend that i gave my trust into. let's just call that person Y (bcs it's not my X :b)  i shared my stories, laughed together, and more. but now Y changed. not like the old one. not a person i comfort with anymore. i feel like afraid if Y beside me. it scares me a lot if i talk with Y. i'm afraid if Y offended by my words and turned to attack me with more spicy words, when i didn't really mean it (just kidding). i'm a sensitive (told ya) i really hate it if i had that friend who doesn't like me and didn't give me the whole reason why. i'm gonna wondering evvvverythin' abt my manner with him/her in mind. 'what have i done?' 'did i do something wrong?' 'shit i did it' 'what should i do now?' 'everyone must be hate me bcs of it' 'ugh stupid audrey' and since i'm not good at apologizing, that'll ruin every little sec of my life :( :( i don't wanna be that girl who cries over the smallest things. but if it connected with buddies i love to cuddle with, i'm gonna cry like spongebob when he was being ignored by her grandma.

third, i'm wondering how my college would be if i can't do anything myself . but that really doesn't mean anything since i haven't even graduated from high school lol.



wish me luck!!!
a thinker,
xxx

liebster award

yippie yeay! i got my first liebster award from my superb buddy: zahara (thank you and love you babe) i got this since jan 3th 2013, but i just have a chance to post like right now. to be accepted of this award is you have to answers some questions from the one who gave you the award.


here it is, the requirements that must be followed:
thanking who has given this award and include the link in your post
write 11 random things about you
answer 11 questions the same people who love this award
share this award to 11 other bloggers who have followers less than 200. put their links in your post. be sure you know them if you love award.
create 11 questions to 11 bloggers who you nominate :)

okay i've thanked zahara for this award and then let's continue with 11 random things about me.
i am a bookworm. i love books. a looot. i don't know how my life would be without book beside me bfr sleep. i have my own world when reading books soo it's no offens guise.
dreamer. when one day you see me laugh or smile or cry alone, it doesn't mean that i need a doctor or what, it's my book who made me have million of hallucinations. well, but i love it.
i'm your grandma. i forgot things a lot (sorry)
a romantic. i love the part when Hercules told Hera, "people gettin crazy when they're in love" and ran after it to save Hera's life. that's just too sweet i can't help.
a consultant. i love to give advices for my fiends prob. it just nice seeing the smile of the one you love appear after their tears by hearing your suggest.
love my sister more than brother. sorry brad
blogwalkers. watch out i'm your stalkers lol!
love maroon 5, justin bieber, katy perry, dev, and other american singers
moody (sorry for this)
i wanna be an American since i love all their movies. most faforite movies: harry potter and twilight saga.


and the questions are:
1. what are your reasons for blogging? to share. it's nice to write down all you know and let anyone know abt it too.
2. any kind of blog contents? many. most of them are my diaries, some pictures, random quotes, etc etc.
3. when did you first start blogging? forgooot (yesh a grandma). i alrd made 2 blogs bfr this one, but i forgot the password. but i made this blog on feb 2011.
4. your first post on the blog? my first post usually abt the introducing of my blog. the link
5. if you have time blogging routine or what you like instead? random. i post when i want to.
6. posting on your blog that your own work or copy and paste from another site? bcs mostly the contents of blog are my 'dear diary' of course i made it myself. but some of pictures i took from google and tumblr
7. you know all your blog followers? not at all. i know some of them who are my friends and the half of it i just knew from the comments on my blog.
8. how many blogs do you follow? what makes you follow a blog? manyyy. if i like their post i'll do follow them. most of them are fashion bloggers :>
9. no ads on your blog? if there is why you put ads on your blog? if there is not, why do not you want to advertise on your blog? no. not interest either hehe.
10. how many blog do you have? (give the link if the blog is more than one) and what is the most active blogs? 3 but the two of it i can't find the link (maybe it's alrd deactive) so i just have one blog and this is the most active blog (;
11. congratulations. thank youuuuuuu <3



aaand the lucky persons i'll give this award to are:
1. naira aulia rahmaputri
2. ditha pratiwi
3. amalia widyasari
4. yuyun apriyani
5. dita kusuma wardani
6. saskia nurul fitri andini
7. annisa qarima puspita
8.
9.
10.
11.

here are the questions for them:
1. why do you love blogging?
2. from who you know about blog world?
3. who is your fav blogger(s)?
4. what country do you like the most and gimme the reason!
5. how many blogs do you follow?
6. do you like reading? what kinds of books do you like to read?
7. describe your life-wanna-be from movie and the reasons why ( like 'i wanna be Bella Swan in twilight because she's so lucky to be loved by 2 hot guys in the world' )
8. what is your fav songs?
9. if you were given i wish, what would it be?
10. what's your life quotes?
11. who is your inspiration?

p.s: wish me luck for the national exams pleaseeee
xxxo

i'm (almost) done

so i'm done with schools final exams. wait, it doesn't mean i'm free. there are still some of practice exams and national exams i have to face. you don't know how i want to have time machine to make time flew fastest. but well it's all about the process. all the goals means nothing if you didn't feel the process. well, everything instant will gone instant too. so here i am. trying to enjoy all things that God given me. eventho' it is hard. really. i 'sigh-ed' much more than 'thanked' *forgive me God* :(

well, sorry guys for always read all this boring life of me. all i talked was always about the exams and exams. sorry but this thing is what fullfiled my head for these few months and nothing can't help but to pour it into my blog (bcs i'm too lazy to write it in my own diary). hope you're fine with that : )


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WHOAAAA

if i were able to scream out loud as the title mentioned, it'd be veryyy nice (srsly). i'm having tryout from today until the next 2 days (include saturday.....) hang on, brain!!! idk why but knowing i'm in the 12th grade now is even not enough to motivate me to study harder and harder :( (so sad) 2 days ago, me and my friends just had a motivation seminar from a motivator. he's greaaat! he told us not to study in night but in 1/3 of night and do pray tahajjud diligently and i was so excited! it was succesfull for me to do that 2 nigths bfr but it didn't work last night (got oversleep omg) and wish me luck for tonighttt.

oh! and i just registered sbmptn (it's like university entrance test) but haven't do the finalization. THIS is what really makes me confused all the time! this is gonna be my future if i were accepted in one of the universities i've been registered. so i should think over 1000 times to choose which one is the best for me and..... i did finally. bless me, god!

all the 12th grade things are just so complicated! i never though bfr that entrancing university is as hard as this *sigh* just fyi, you have to do your hardest work on this and never play with your choice! no no no! think twice or 100 0r 10000 or maybe a billion times bfr choose before you regret on it.

todays whispers: dear all readers, can you please pray for me for the next national exam? i'd very bery bery appreciate it if you would do and thanks before :)


p.s: for you, who have messed my heart up and down thank you :)

di-ar-i-way

the precious 2012

now listening: as long as you love me by Justin Bieber

can you believe that 2012 is about to meet its end? i can't. how fast the time flies. it's hard to believe that i have spent almost 48 weeks, 365 days, 8760 hours, ... minutes, and .... seconds (count it yourself) in 2012. i've through many bad and good things in this year and that was amazingggg, unforgottable. in 2012, i got the special age (my sweet 17) which means a lot for me, i had my best girls who have been accompanied me in sad and happy moments (sorry to disturb your ears too much of my complicated-love-stories zah, is :b:b), i through all the happiest things together with my classmate friends (love you xo muxxh), and for you who have invited me but i -accidentally- broke that :) 

i got so many lessons in this precious years and thanks god for keeping me and the world alive (who said that 12.12.12 would be the end of the world ha?). ipromise to self that i will learn from my mistakes in this year to make a good change in 2013 (wish me luck!) :D

new years identical with making some wishlists to do better in. i think i don't need to write my wishlist here bcs we all alrd know that we should do 'BETTER' in the next year. but if i should rank my wishlist, 'being on time' is at the top of my wishlist hehehe. honestly, i'm not an on time person and it's so disturbing (for me and another person). let's give applause for my best friends, esp. aisyah who have been though enough to deal with my bad habit since a long time hihi *kiss kiss* wish i were able to change this habit in the next 2013 amien.

well, it's rainy seasons here in indonesia and floods are everywhere. let's pray the best for the victims and thanking god how blessed we are who are not the victims. anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013!

X

audrey

the goal

first of all, i just want to say HAPPY IED FITR 1433 H!
wish god still give us that opportunity to meet this blessed month next years :) finally after all 29 days for fasting (not fully 29 days for me), we reached the goal which is the most waited Lebaran! u kno, that this day has always been my favourite day in years. things that remind me about Lebaran are: family, ketupat, nastar, new clothes and of course.... moneys (hehe). and i just got all of that and so happy :3

and just for you know that im not goin' to hometown this time (hiks). but it's ok, in here was pretty fun! i met all of my big families such as bude, pakde, auntie, uncle, and of course all of my cousinsss. we talked and ate and talked and watched ice age 3 and ate and talked and laughed aaaaaand my stomach is about to bomb right now. full-field :9

how's ur Lebaran anw? wish it's nice, just like me or even better :)

taqobballahu minna wa minkum wa shiyaamana wa shiyaamakum
minal aidin wal faidzin
mohon maaf lahir dan batin

audrey &fams<3

madness

dont ask how is my day because it just made my day worse than before. yap today is absolutely not my day! k lets check it one by one.

first, i hurt my friend by my words. of course i dont mean that. we just had jokes like the day before but idk that she's not in the mood or anything and now she got mad with me.dont blame me that much because i was trying to apologize but still....no respons. ok i'll try again later. and then we (i mean fe) had a problem about our plan to have together breakfasting. yeaa we want to have together breakfasting with my friends in tenth grade but it's just so so so complicated. gah! (please dont blame me too much now bcs there're another reasons to make me feel like a stupid luzer)

what else? one of my friends are having fight with her boyf and (no, she doesnt blame me here bcs i'm not 'exist' in this problem) asked my suggest. i'm trying to give my best suggest but she's still in her way. so i mean, why should you asked me but then you just decline my suggest? ok maybe i havent being like that but i'm trying hard to get that suggest so yaa i hope you'll minimally be nice with me. just so you know, i'm not that person who just listen your problem with a half of my ear. i will listen it pretty well and than give my best respons, so that you won't regret that you have told your problem to the wrong person!

oh one more! my cousins just made me to reboot my laptop in bad ways bcs he played games and made my laptop hang. wuffh please god, dont make this day worse than it. i'm in a god level of madness right now. all of those problem is like spinning around on my head. i have told you that i'm an over-thinker, haven't i? that's me!

enjoy your day people! (dont ruin your day. just. dont)

drey,
>:O>:O

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konichiwa! it's Ramadhan now and i've done my first fasting pretty well (thanks god). i prayed tarawih today with aisyah, one of my favourites. and just as usual, we talked about many things. and finally we got the point that we are same. we both love a boy (different boy) but we are too ashamed to admit it ahaha *high five*. we dont know how long too keep this feeling or maybe we dont know, should we keep hiding (eventho' its hurt) or saying out about this? any suggest? ;-p

ah skip that. yesterday, me and my friends visited Key. it has been a year he left us. may you rest in peace Key, we'll never forget to send pray for you. we miss him. a lot. it's kinda weird when 2 years ago we still can have together break fasting, but now? all we can do now is just visited him in his peacest place beside god :-)

aand we have a 'big day' tomorrow! wanna know? i'll tell you later okay. it's still a secret hohoho.

oh by the way i want to send apologizes to all of you for my words which is kinda hurting you, my bad act (yayaya i know-_-) and many more. let's celebrate Ramadhan with spread the love and peace by forgive each other. it'll be nice if all of you can forgive me, thank you very much strangersss.

enjoy your limited time folkies
X
drey

it's over

and hi! holiday is over and tomorrow is monday. *sigh* honestly i'm not ready for school but i'm ready to meet my friends. i miss all of them so badly. i miss icut, arab, jelleh, idung, bella, tari, dora, bu aji, dayeh, winda, widi, putu, litha, izza, manda, uci, intan, lola, jawek, uray, stephie, tonang, ichwan, and all of the boys. i miss class, the tables, the chairs, the whiteboard, the infocus, the music (from RnB until dangdut), the laugh of someone's jokes, the talk when we have lunch together, the cheat when exam *oops*, ALL.

*it's a lie i'm not that happy honestly*

now i'm a 12th grader which is i have to focus study to face the national examination. omg i'm going to enter the college next years, time flies too fast! wish me all of lucks in this new grade! god bless me amin.


yesterday me and fams went to my cousin's new house and have a party. it was quite fun to meet all of big family. we talked, ate, and laughed as much as we can til my tummy is fully field (i can't feel my tummy last night). and then we went to my old house too because one of my cousins grandma is passed away. i had a really quality time with family last night. but there's a bit annoying too. honestly, i have to attend my friend's sweet seventeen birthday party that night, but blame it to traffvck jam. we just arrived home at 10.30 p.m. and that time, the party was over. it was almost midnight and it wasn't a good timing to come to ppl's home so i didn't join the party. so sorry yuli :-(

umm i can't understand about that guys mind. why are they so complicated? if i were a mind reader... sometimes i feel like he doesn't want me anymore in his life, but sometimes i feel like he wants me back (maybe i'm just too confidence or it's only my feel? idk) but it's rather to be friend than act like a stranger like this even each of us know, we don't. well, i wish for the best :D

and yeah! Ramadhan is coming!!! we are going to have a month fasting (wish it's really a month!). we're gonna have sahur at subuh, break-fasting at maghrib, pray tarawih after isya, until angbao in lebaran fufufu. and the most eagerly awaited in Ramadhan is *tara dung ces* ketupat! by imagine that, i can taste my drool's falling down. yum yum yummyyyyy. can't wait! thanks god i still able to meet your most precious month in a year. o:--)

enjoy your weekend folks!

just. a. post.

yes. thing i really i want to break up with- is stress. can't stop spinning arround my head. really disturbing. top moodbreaker. the cause of my annoying sensitive. sucha great breaker!

that's how i looked like when i stressed. so cute ritee? ok it just kiddin'. 

this is how honestly my face when stressed out. it feels like 'i can't hold this anymoreeeee! get that fvckin' mind outta here!!!!' 

i'm sucha thinker. bad thinker. i can't life one day whitout a whole think in mind. from the thing-i-should-think until the thing hey-should-i-think-about-this?. asking a lot of questions for myself everytimey even idk what is for. it makes me crazy some of time.

yeah all i wanna do is run. run as far as it can be. far far away. but i remember the thing. run is tired. so i forget that thing and quickly changed my mind.

a cup of tea makes everything betta! i love its smells. its taste. its colour. its cup. its puff of smoke in a cup of hot tea. and when you sip it slrrpt. hahhh its nice. feels better. 

if sayin' goodbye is as easy as sayin 'hi', i swear i did that long time ago. but it just 'if', so i didn't do that. keep my chin up and focus my eyes of all i'm gonna face in front of me. keep in life!

 enjoy your time, ppl.

h-h-holiday

hei! im on my holiday after those school things (re: exams and classmeet) ruined my life. and this is my holiday! i still have no plan for what im going to do in the next 2 weeks but dont ask about my schedule for this weeks. its all full! on monday, i went with my mom and did beauty treatment. we had facial together hehehe. and on tuesday, we (me & fe) had a secret project together in shinta's house. and on that day i was very shy. they already knew about the 'thing i dont want to tell them' hafft. on wednesday i went to school. me idung icut jella arab and windy talked about our plan to have class feast event on saturday nite. its gonna be sooooo fun since we just met at least in classmeeting (and i didnt join them until the end of classmeet bcs i went to jakarta. but finally we win as overall champion on that classmeet! and i got first rank on mtq competition. i cant believe it omg. wiiy!) 

and today im not going anywhere. just stay at home and browsing (backsound: fuuuu). and saski just visited me! i returned back her mechanic pencil that she forgot to put when they made bulletin board in classmeeting (i didnt join-_-) we talked about the feast we're going to have on saturday and she talked about what she has done last night-_- yeah if you are one of my bbm contacts, you must knew that last nite my status was >:o>:o>:o>:o:]xx. its all because of the girl that visited me then. whoaaaa i was so shocked that nite!  but tomorrow, on friday we (me arab idung icut jella dayeh) will make something in the kitchen and i cant wait for it :9  i'll post the picture later if im done with that. and on saturday my mom and dad will get my report cards from school. omg wish it good amiin! and on saturday nite we'll have the feast together at dayeh's house yippieeee! 

and well.... talk about heart. *ekhem* this is so sensitive. but if there's a quote to represent my feeling is "something feel precious when it's gone, right?" - anonymous :$

and have a great weekend everyone! <3

its a life

*hugs for bloggie*
it has been 8493565954313130 years i never touched you #lebay but really, i do miss blogging so much. well , it seems like i miss anything but i back! hm where should i start? ok a week ago im done watch The Avengers & amelda. such a great mooovie and i promise i will watch for the 2nd part. and and and geezwhat? my schoool is not such a jerk anymore hoo-ho they give us short-holiday from thursday until sunday and it makes me feel like WAW ily school <3 ow yeah theres a bad news about the senior-i-like, he already has a girlfriend but dont worry its not love i have to him, it just umm like fans?! whatever forget him and find another HAHA. ok i have one honestly, hes the one i cant forgot for a minute, hour, days, weeks, months, and many times bhahaha. ok skip.

aah! i almost forgot. a few days ago i just got a little surgery in my left eye. the doctor said that it was an infection of gland in the eyelid. that was my first surgery of my life. and all my impression for that is HURT. it was hurt so much. could you imagine when your eyes are needles? its perfectly hurt huhuhu but i didnt cried (great!) i just hold the tears with my teeth gritted. and after all, she wrapped my eye with bandage and made me look like Jack Sparrow. when i sent my Jack Sparrow-picture to my uncle, he laughed and used it as his display picture (such a crazy uncle ryt?) but it has recovered now and ta-daaa my eye back to normal! thanks doc (but not for the medicine. did she think im be able to swallow all those fvckin big medicines?!?!??)

in this weeks, there are many problems come to my friends and their lovers. and im just a bit confused about it. they asked me for suggestion and i give my best resolution for them. but um i just feel this is so weird. im single and free, so why they asked me? but of course, im ok with all of them. i just glad to help people i love and see theyre happy too :--D

hoah i need to get back to my room and have some rests. there are too many things i should do 2morro (group  tasks. what else?).

Kiss!