don't grow up. it's a trap!

good news! i've passed those mess' (re: national exam) a week ago and it's a relief i feel inside my heart now. WHOPS not all relief. i haven't know what kind of score i'm gonna see in my report card of last semester yet. and well, i wanna share about that famous national exam in this year, 2013. i thought this is the worst nat-exam that have ever been happened in indo (if you know what i mean, indonesians). we have 20 package kind of questions which means we really are NOT allowed to cheat with the others. ups it's not the end until there, the question and answer sheet are in one package so to answer the question, we have to tear it up first. i mean, oh c'mon! 20 package of questions is more than enough to mess our brain and heart all up and down... but it didn't make matter since i've passed it (hopefully) well and swear to god  i'm going to enjoy my gonna-be-loooooong holiday now :) *thanks for all the prayers dear readers*

oh well, and today is zella's birthday! she is turning 18th today and i'm like 'oh c'mon dude, i just took a photo for my identity card of legitimatilly an indonesian and she is already 18!' time flew too fast baby. but after all, i had a good day. we ate pizzas and blew the candles (not we but she is) and walked and walked and sang in karaoke and back home. i gave her my handmade as a gift and i guessed she likes it *glad* can't wait for the next good day :)

but i feel like there's something missing here. i miss my all classmates like so much. we finally ended up being 12th graders. we are not required to study in our class anymore. no more homeworks, no more cheat, no more laugh in class, no more nag from teachers, no more fight, no more. oh so sad :,( before this, we want everything goes fastly, just for not doing assignments, studying, and yadda yadda. but after all have passed, we want it back again (not we maybe but especially me). i miss all the time, the memories. yap the memories. it will only be memories to keep in mind, will never be replayed. oh shittttt i hate to grow up. i've ever seen someone's quote said "don't grow up, kid. it's a trap" and i just realized it's a true. yes it is absolutely a trap :(

p.s:

it's over

and hi! holiday is over and tomorrow is monday. *sigh* honestly i'm not ready for school but i'm ready to meet my friends. i miss all of them so badly. i miss icut, arab, jelleh, idung, bella, tari, dora, bu aji, dayeh, winda, widi, putu, litha, izza, manda, uci, intan, lola, jawek, uray, stephie, tonang, ichwan, and all of the boys. i miss class, the tables, the chairs, the whiteboard, the infocus, the music (from RnB until dangdut), the laugh of someone's jokes, the talk when we have lunch together, the cheat when exam *oops*, ALL.

*it's a lie i'm not that happy honestly*

now i'm a 12th grader which is i have to focus study to face the national examination. omg i'm going to enter the college next years, time flies too fast! wish me all of lucks in this new grade! god bless me amin.


yesterday me and fams went to my cousin's new house and have a party. it was quite fun to meet all of big family. we talked, ate, and laughed as much as we can til my tummy is fully field (i can't feel my tummy last night). and then we went to my old house too because one of my cousins grandma is passed away. i had a really quality time with family last night. but there's a bit annoying too. honestly, i have to attend my friend's sweet seventeen birthday party that night, but blame it to traffvck jam. we just arrived home at 10.30 p.m. and that time, the party was over. it was almost midnight and it wasn't a good timing to come to ppl's home so i didn't join the party. so sorry yuli :-(

umm i can't understand about that guys mind. why are they so complicated? if i were a mind reader... sometimes i feel like he doesn't want me anymore in his life, but sometimes i feel like he wants me back (maybe i'm just too confidence or it's only my feel? idk) but it's rather to be friend than act like a stranger like this even each of us know, we don't. well, i wish for the best :D

and yeah! Ramadhan is coming!!! we are going to have a month fasting (wish it's really a month!). we're gonna have sahur at subuh, break-fasting at maghrib, pray tarawih after isya, until angbao in lebaran fufufu. and the most eagerly awaited in Ramadhan is *tara dung ces* ketupat! by imagine that, i can taste my drool's falling down. yum yum yummyyyyy. can't wait! thanks god i still able to meet your most precious month in a year. o:--)

enjoy your weekend folks!