inspiration

just realized that i've never have a 'permanent' inspiration in life, so far. i have ever inspire Ayuzawa Misaki who is the main character of my lovely comic 'My Sweet Kaichou' with her strength and high self confident to face anyy problems she had. and also to always be yourself because people will love you for who you really are, right? you should her the comic, it's so funny! and the guy main character is soooo asdfgjkl handsome omg.

but it is not the real one, i mean she's not real. i want to find my inspiration in a person, who live in a real world. i love to suffering internet and found many fashion bloggers, both local and international. and i waaay love to see their different fashion style. i have many lists of my fav fashion bloggers but i only inspire one of them a lot. she is the great Diana Rikasari!

here she is! the pretty, Kak Di :)

i adore her so much. she owned 2 shoe brands and the shoes are all beautiful. i want to buy one of their heels for my ceremony graduation but it has 14 working days to arrive at my door since i need it for the next 7 days. poor me ;(
she is such a suppa creative person  i've ever seen (not in person, only in blog)! and the most thing i like from her is she is BRAVE enough to be DIFFERENT. she is not afraid to wear any 'weird' look even she got many bad judges from 'unresponsible-big-mouths' and brave enough to judge to the right things. i like that! she always have little things to be happy with in many hard things to face in life. she through it happily and ended it well too. i love to read her life journey to be as great as now, and that things reallyyy inspire me :') and when it goes to her husband, oh gosh both of them are the sweetest! read her blog to approve it.

i realized that i'm just a girl who 'sigh'-ed much more than thanked Allah for what i have now. and i love her mind set in this post: here to click

things to remember:
when you see other people's fortunate life, don't just look up at theirs and adore them without do anything to change your life as better or more than them. it's a poor thing. go grab anything beside your hands and make magic with it! there's only a rainbow after thunderstorm right? you just have to find your own rainbow and remember, the way is not always go smoothly, sometimes it's complicated or maybe windy but if you try hard, believe that you'll find the best! cheer up ^^v

"Always have God in your heart, and you shall never worry too much." - Diana Rikasari

xoxo, 
audrey

don't grow up. it's a trap!

good news! i've passed those mess' (re: national exam) a week ago and it's a relief i feel inside my heart now. WHOPS not all relief. i haven't know what kind of score i'm gonna see in my report card of last semester yet. and well, i wanna share about that famous national exam in this year, 2013. i thought this is the worst nat-exam that have ever been happened in indo (if you know what i mean, indonesians). we have 20 package kind of questions which means we really are NOT allowed to cheat with the others. ups it's not the end until there, the question and answer sheet are in one package so to answer the question, we have to tear it up first. i mean, oh c'mon! 20 package of questions is more than enough to mess our brain and heart all up and down... but it didn't make matter since i've passed it (hopefully) well and swear to god  i'm going to enjoy my gonna-be-loooooong holiday now :) *thanks for all the prayers dear readers*

oh well, and today is zella's birthday! she is turning 18th today and i'm like 'oh c'mon dude, i just took a photo for my identity card of legitimatilly an indonesian and she is already 18!' time flew too fast baby. but after all, i had a good day. we ate pizzas and blew the candles (not we but she is) and walked and walked and sang in karaoke and back home. i gave her my handmade as a gift and i guessed she likes it *glad* can't wait for the next good day :)

but i feel like there's something missing here. i miss my all classmates like so much. we finally ended up being 12th graders. we are not required to study in our class anymore. no more homeworks, no more cheat, no more laugh in class, no more nag from teachers, no more fight, no more. oh so sad :,( before this, we want everything goes fastly, just for not doing assignments, studying, and yadda yadda. but after all have passed, we want it back again (not we maybe but especially me). i miss all the time, the memories. yap the memories. it will only be memories to keep in mind, will never be replayed. oh shittttt i hate to grow up. i've ever seen someone's quote said "don't grow up, kid. it's a trap" and i just realized it's a true. yes it is absolutely a trap :(

p.s:

florish

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Warehouse long sleeve cardigan
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Floor length skirt
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Rupert sanderson shoes
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Valentino studded handbag
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Cashmere shawl
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things learned

i learned many things today. let's check it one by one.

first, don't be a mushroom. don't be a parasite. they can't live without another creature they suck into. well, you don't know how it feels when you wasted most of your time just to wait that person but that person left you, with anothers. you really give your honest trust for that person, but it's like 'who cares?' sigh.it is dissapointing. really. and that remains only regret. 'why didn't i go first?' 'why that person left me?' 'why should i wait?' that's only the left question in mind.

second, life changes and so does people. i knew this since loooooong time ago but just felt it now. i have that one friend that i gave my trust into. let's just call that person Y (bcs it's not my X :b)  i shared my stories, laughed together, and more. but now Y changed. not like the old one. not a person i comfort with anymore. i feel like afraid if Y beside me. it scares me a lot if i talk with Y. i'm afraid if Y offended by my words and turned to attack me with more spicy words, when i didn't really mean it (just kidding). i'm a sensitive (told ya) i really hate it if i had that friend who doesn't like me and didn't give me the whole reason why. i'm gonna wondering evvvverythin' abt my manner with him/her in mind. 'what have i done?' 'did i do something wrong?' 'shit i did it' 'what should i do now?' 'everyone must be hate me bcs of it' 'ugh stupid audrey' and since i'm not good at apologizing, that'll ruin every little sec of my life :( :( i don't wanna be that girl who cries over the smallest things. but if it connected with buddies i love to cuddle with, i'm gonna cry like spongebob when he was being ignored by her grandma.

third, i'm wondering how my college would be if i can't do anything myself . but that really doesn't mean anything since i haven't even graduated from high school lol.



wish me luck!!!
a thinker,
xxx

liebster award

yippie yeay! i got my first liebster award from my superb buddy: zahara (thank you and love you babe) i got this since jan 3th 2013, but i just have a chance to post like right now. to be accepted of this award is you have to answers some questions from the one who gave you the award.


here it is, the requirements that must be followed:
thanking who has given this award and include the link in your post
write 11 random things about you
answer 11 questions the same people who love this award
share this award to 11 other bloggers who have followers less than 200. put their links in your post. be sure you know them if you love award.
create 11 questions to 11 bloggers who you nominate :)

okay i've thanked zahara for this award and then let's continue with 11 random things about me.
i am a bookworm. i love books. a looot. i don't know how my life would be without book beside me bfr sleep. i have my own world when reading books soo it's no offens guise.
dreamer. when one day you see me laugh or smile or cry alone, it doesn't mean that i need a doctor or what, it's my book who made me have million of hallucinations. well, but i love it.
i'm your grandma. i forgot things a lot (sorry)
a romantic. i love the part when Hercules told Hera, "people gettin crazy when they're in love" and ran after it to save Hera's life. that's just too sweet i can't help.
a consultant. i love to give advices for my fiends prob. it just nice seeing the smile of the one you love appear after their tears by hearing your suggest.
love my sister more than brother. sorry brad
blogwalkers. watch out i'm your stalkers lol!
love maroon 5, justin bieber, katy perry, dev, and other american singers
moody (sorry for this)
i wanna be an American since i love all their movies. most faforite movies: harry potter and twilight saga.


and the questions are:
1. what are your reasons for blogging? to share. it's nice to write down all you know and let anyone know abt it too.
2. any kind of blog contents? many. most of them are my diaries, some pictures, random quotes, etc etc.
3. when did you first start blogging? forgooot (yesh a grandma). i alrd made 2 blogs bfr this one, but i forgot the password. but i made this blog on feb 2011.
4. your first post on the blog? my first post usually abt the introducing of my blog. the link
5. if you have time blogging routine or what you like instead? random. i post when i want to.
6. posting on your blog that your own work or copy and paste from another site? bcs mostly the contents of blog are my 'dear diary' of course i made it myself. but some of pictures i took from google and tumblr
7. you know all your blog followers? not at all. i know some of them who are my friends and the half of it i just knew from the comments on my blog.
8. how many blogs do you follow? what makes you follow a blog? manyyy. if i like their post i'll do follow them. most of them are fashion bloggers :>
9. no ads on your blog? if there is why you put ads on your blog? if there is not, why do not you want to advertise on your blog? no. not interest either hehe.
10. how many blog do you have? (give the link if the blog is more than one) and what is the most active blogs? 3 but the two of it i can't find the link (maybe it's alrd deactive) so i just have one blog and this is the most active blog (;
11. congratulations. thank youuuuuuu <3



aaand the lucky persons i'll give this award to are:
1. naira aulia rahmaputri
2. ditha pratiwi
3. amalia widyasari
4. yuyun apriyani
5. dita kusuma wardani
6. saskia nurul fitri andini
7. annisa qarima puspita
8.
9.
10.
11.

here are the questions for them:
1. why do you love blogging?
2. from who you know about blog world?
3. who is your fav blogger(s)?
4. what country do you like the most and gimme the reason!
5. how many blogs do you follow?
6. do you like reading? what kinds of books do you like to read?
7. describe your life-wanna-be from movie and the reasons why ( like 'i wanna be Bella Swan in twilight because she's so lucky to be loved by 2 hot guys in the world' )
8. what is your fav songs?
9. if you were given i wish, what would it be?
10. what's your life quotes?
11. who is your inspiration?

p.s: wish me luck for the national exams pleaseeee
xxxo

i'm (almost) done

so i'm done with schools final exams. wait, it doesn't mean i'm free. there are still some of practice exams and national exams i have to face. you don't know how i want to have time machine to make time flew fastest. but well it's all about the process. all the goals means nothing if you didn't feel the process. well, everything instant will gone instant too. so here i am. trying to enjoy all things that God given me. eventho' it is hard. really. i 'sigh-ed' much more than 'thanked' *forgive me God* :(

well, sorry guys for always read all this boring life of me. all i talked was always about the exams and exams. sorry but this thing is what fullfiled my head for these few months and nothing can't help but to pour it into my blog (bcs i'm too lazy to write it in my own diary). hope you're fine with that : )


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WHOAAAA

if i were able to scream out loud as the title mentioned, it'd be veryyy nice (srsly). i'm having tryout from today until the next 2 days (include saturday.....) hang on, brain!!! idk why but knowing i'm in the 12th grade now is even not enough to motivate me to study harder and harder :( (so sad) 2 days ago, me and my friends just had a motivation seminar from a motivator. he's greaaat! he told us not to study in night but in 1/3 of night and do pray tahajjud diligently and i was so excited! it was succesfull for me to do that 2 nigths bfr but it didn't work last night (got oversleep omg) and wish me luck for tonighttt.

oh! and i just registered sbmptn (it's like university entrance test) but haven't do the finalization. THIS is what really makes me confused all the time! this is gonna be my future if i were accepted in one of the universities i've been registered. so i should think over 1000 times to choose which one is the best for me and..... i did finally. bless me, god!

all the 12th grade things are just so complicated! i never though bfr that entrancing university is as hard as this *sigh* just fyi, you have to do your hardest work on this and never play with your choice! no no no! think twice or 100 0r 10000 or maybe a billion times bfr choose before you regret on it.

todays whispers: dear all readers, can you please pray for me for the next national exam? i'd very bery bery appreciate it if you would do and thanks before :)


p.s: for you, who have messed my heart up and down thank you :)

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