don't grow up. it's a trap!

good news! i've passed those mess' (re: national exam) a week ago and it's a relief i feel inside my heart now. WHOPS not all relief. i haven't know what kind of score i'm gonna see in my report card of last semester yet. and well, i wanna share about that famous national exam in this year, 2013. i thought this is the worst nat-exam that have ever been happened in indo (if you know what i mean, indonesians). we have 20 package kind of questions which means we really are NOT allowed to cheat with the others. ups it's not the end until there, the question and answer sheet are in one package so to answer the question, we have to tear it up first. i mean, oh c'mon! 20 package of questions is more than enough to mess our brain and heart all up and down... but it didn't make matter since i've passed it (hopefully) well and swear to god  i'm going to enjoy my gonna-be-loooooong holiday now :) *thanks for all the prayers dear readers*

oh well, and today is zella's birthday! she is turning 18th today and i'm like 'oh c'mon dude, i just took a photo for my identity card of legitimatilly an indonesian and she is already 18!' time flew too fast baby. but after all, i had a good day. we ate pizzas and blew the candles (not we but she is) and walked and walked and sang in karaoke and back home. i gave her my handmade as a gift and i guessed she likes it *glad* can't wait for the next good day :)

but i feel like there's something missing here. i miss my all classmates like so much. we finally ended up being 12th graders. we are not required to study in our class anymore. no more homeworks, no more cheat, no more laugh in class, no more nag from teachers, no more fight, no more. oh so sad :,( before this, we want everything goes fastly, just for not doing assignments, studying, and yadda yadda. but after all have passed, we want it back again (not we maybe but especially me). i miss all the time, the memories. yap the memories. it will only be memories to keep in mind, will never be replayed. oh shittttt i hate to grow up. i've ever seen someone's quote said "don't grow up, kid. it's a trap" and i just realized it's a true. yes it is absolutely a trap :(

p.s:

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konichiwa! it's Ramadhan now and i've done my first fasting pretty well (thanks god). i prayed tarawih today with aisyah, one of my favourites. and just as usual, we talked about many things. and finally we got the point that we are same. we both love a boy (different boy) but we are too ashamed to admit it ahaha *high five*. we dont know how long too keep this feeling or maybe we dont know, should we keep hiding (eventho' its hurt) or saying out about this? any suggest? ;-p

ah skip that. yesterday, me and my friends visited Key. it has been a year he left us. may you rest in peace Key, we'll never forget to send pray for you. we miss him. a lot. it's kinda weird when 2 years ago we still can have together break fasting, but now? all we can do now is just visited him in his peacest place beside god :-)

aand we have a 'big day' tomorrow! wanna know? i'll tell you later okay. it's still a secret hohoho.

oh by the way i want to send apologizes to all of you for my words which is kinda hurting you, my bad act (yayaya i know-_-) and many more. let's celebrate Ramadhan with spread the love and peace by forgive each other. it'll be nice if all of you can forgive me, thank you very much strangersss.

enjoy your limited time folkies
X
drey

h-h-holiday

hei! im on my holiday after those school things (re: exams and classmeet) ruined my life. and this is my holiday! i still have no plan for what im going to do in the next 2 weeks but dont ask about my schedule for this weeks. its all full! on monday, i went with my mom and did beauty treatment. we had facial together hehehe. and on tuesday, we (me & fe) had a secret project together in shinta's house. and on that day i was very shy. they already knew about the 'thing i dont want to tell them' hafft. on wednesday i went to school. me idung icut jella arab and windy talked about our plan to have class feast event on saturday nite. its gonna be sooooo fun since we just met at least in classmeeting (and i didnt join them until the end of classmeet bcs i went to jakarta. but finally we win as overall champion on that classmeet! and i got first rank on mtq competition. i cant believe it omg. wiiy!) 

and today im not going anywhere. just stay at home and browsing (backsound: fuuuu). and saski just visited me! i returned back her mechanic pencil that she forgot to put when they made bulletin board in classmeeting (i didnt join-_-) we talked about the feast we're going to have on saturday and she talked about what she has done last night-_- yeah if you are one of my bbm contacts, you must knew that last nite my status was >:o>:o>:o>:o:]xx. its all because of the girl that visited me then. whoaaaa i was so shocked that nite!  but tomorrow, on friday we (me arab idung icut jella dayeh) will make something in the kitchen and i cant wait for it :9  i'll post the picture later if im done with that. and on saturday my mom and dad will get my report cards from school. omg wish it good amiin! and on saturday nite we'll have the feast together at dayeh's house yippieeee! 

and well.... talk about heart. *ekhem* this is so sensitive. but if there's a quote to represent my feeling is "something feel precious when it's gone, right?" - anonymous :$

and have a great weekend everyone! <3

water falls from the sky

hey. rainy here. just stucked in front of laptop. i miss networking so much. pfffft there is still indonesian homework to do, but i have not done it. lazyness upppp! wel, i just had a litle meeting with my loveliest. and we talked about everything. i mean. every. we pulled out every disturbing thing in our heart, laugh out, and well gossiping. o wait. the sleeping beauty awake. poor her. she slept in her room alone. fyi: mom went out with aunty and dad worked. aurell awake bcs of the sounds of thunder. she cried, hug me tight and slept above my stomach just like a cute kitten.

well, this week i have much group assignments. ok its not too much, about 3-4 group ass. but its enough to full my mind with those things. drama. ugh. why drama? ok i love it butttt its so complicated. we should know what film we want to perform, dialogues, costumes, enough enough enough. please dearest teacher, dont give us too much. too tired, frustated, stressed out, and blahblahblah.

and it has been long time since i played my tumblr. i miss tumblr-ing so much. rain likes to fall in my town so much. its rain everyday here. no prob. i like rain. i love the smell of wet soil. like the smell of hometown. cold. peaceful. nice weather to have sleep. but dont know why im lazy to sleep in rainy day. just wanna watch that natural beauty moment and accompanied with hot tea, jazzy music, and books. whoa! perfect moment. B--) by the way i have a novel to read.

drey,

randomverse

now playing : hot n cold - katy perry

long time no catch you blog. so sorry. i wanna tell you a bad news. our lovely friend has passed away on jan 14th. he's Rizky Alnaldo or we usually call him Key. i send a big condolances for those who lost him. so sad to know that you left us too fast Key. we wont forget you. you're our best friend. we love you and always pray for you. be rest in peace Key :')

katy perry. i love her for sure. she always look gergeous and im swear i wanna have her as my barbie. a few days ago she came to indonesia for her california dream's tour (am i right?) but so sad i cant reach her in the concerts. congratulations for those who watched her. im so envy with y'all :''''( but dont worry. im still your katy cats, katy! <3 lol i remember a funny story about this. me and my friend, zella told the boys in class that we would watched katy perry concert and you know what? they believe it for sure! ha ha we are a good liar, zel. :-D

oh well and now im gettin bored. bored as hell. i wanna make anything fun but too mager to do anything. weird huh? huf oya! last friday we celebrate our teacher's birthday, miss Ari. we bought blackforrest and made a lil surprise and of course sang 'happy birthday' for her. may you have a blast longlife and a great year ahead miss. we love you <3

i havent take a bath yet. too mager, remember? there are a pile of assignments to do and idk how to start. physics really make me crazy. im too idiot for that lesson. help me to do my homework please. im absolutely a labile insane. my mood is up and down now. i feel so happy now but a second later feel so bored. huf tired being this. amuse me please!!!!!! i need a moodboster rite now. who wants? :-)

thanks for hearing my keluh-resah-kesah-gelisah. have a nice day folks (for me too)
x

Memory

Now Playing : Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx

Gotcha! we meet again blog hihi. oh today is the first day of holiday. so, HAPPY HOLIDAY EVERYONE! wish it'll be fun as it sounds. :--D well, honestly i'm so happy now! yesterday, mom just took my exam result. and u know the results? great! thankyou Allah, You're the best. honestly i didn't expect too much. i was afraid i'll get bad scores, but i was wrong! God knows the best. :--) well, mom,dad&grand was so happy for me. they congratulated me, and i felt so shy of that wkwkw :$

I listened musics from headset yet and Your Call - Secondhand Serenade played there. i don't know why but that song is really....uhm remind me of someone. he never sing that song for me, but i know he likes it. when school break (in 10th grade)  he always play Secondhand Serenade songs. moreover, the girls likes it and always request him to play that song (rather than listening weird-scream-songs-the-boys-like). we sang that song together and it was fun. hum i just remind of that memory. just it.

and by the way, here's the lyric if you wanna know.

waiting for your call, i'm sick, i'm angry
call i'm desperate of your voice
listening to the song we used to sing
in the car, do you remember
butterfly, early summer
it's playing on repeat, just like when we would meet
like when we would meet

cause i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to, to make you mine
stay with me tonight

stripped and polished, i am new, i am fresh
i am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
cause every breath that you will take
when you're sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, what's your fantasy?
(what's your..what's your...what's your..)

cause i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to, to make you mine
stay with me tonight

and i'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home 4x
(i know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

cause i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to, to make you mine
stay with me tonight 2x
(i know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

much love
xxx.

after a looooooooooong time

hai blog! rasanya lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ('a'nya sampe jepang) banget gue ngga nge-blog. sebenernya banyak banget yang mau gue ceritain blog, tapi sorry dori mori biri biri yaaaaa, sibuk banget sih :""""" ini juga nyuri-nyuri waktu buat buka blog hehe.

jadi gini, sekarang gue udah kelas 11 di ipa 2 tentunya (udah tau kan?) yaa udah mayan deketlah sama anak-anaknya. seru kok seru, heboh kok heboh, kompak kok kompak :') tapi pelajarannya kok ngga kompak-kompak ya sama otak gue?-_- fisikanya tambah......mantep. ngerti cuma sedih kalo ulangan hm ya gitu deh :(((( doakan ya semoga nilai-nilaiku di kelas 11 ini membaik aminyarobbal'alamin. oya aku ultah loh kemarin (udah lama) tgl 20 september :""""D sedih banget ya blog-ku sampe nggatau maaf yaaaaa. tapi masa ais & zahara ngasih kadonya seminggu setelahnya huhu jahat banget ya mereka. tapi aku tau kok mereka itu oran penting jadi yaa sibuk banget deh. tapi thanks ya for the present lovitsomuch :* and thanks too for all my bestfriends who give me surprise (BADSMELL-SURPRISED) dengan ramuannya saski yang 'OMGBAUBANGET!' iloveyouall *air kisses*

oya kemarin tgl 12 oktober aurell juga ulang tahun loh yang ke-2  best wishes for you ya aurell my lovely tweetie unyuminyiminyi :3 jangan nakal-nakal yah keep be my cutie  lil sist. apalagi ya? oiya gue udah uts! doakan ya semua yang baca semoga nilainya memuaskan aminyarobbal'alamin. and i think enough. that's all for today and the days before.

Barbie girl
ɑúɖɽɘɤ

Yeay!

Hello bloggy. Long time no post. Eh eh aku udah ngambil raport loh (baru sih) guess what? Rank gue naik! Wohooooo *senengtiadatara *jogetjoget Alhamdulillah, terima kasih ya Allah karna selalu setia mendengarkan doa-doaku yang tak terkira itu ihiwƪ(˘⌣˘)┐ Yah semoga ngga ada trouble masalah liburan, kalaupun ada bisa ke-handle amieeen. Perasaan hari ini fullfield banget deh yuhuuuu!


Oya go follow ya new tumblr aku --> http://forgetaboutthemoney.tumblr.com/ 




Tons of love
Audrey ☺ ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ ♥

i'd love to be barbie

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
lose something? i hope not :-)
mau ngasih tau ajakalo gue udah selesai ukk *jogetjoget!!! sounds great? no of course-_- ya jelas. yang lain udah lama bgt ujian dan gue baru selesai *kasianbgt. yaah tapi hamdalah semua sudah dilalui horray!
oya oya oya rencananya gue sama tementemen mau ke dufan liburan ini yuhuu! tapi..... ada beberapa kendala. yaaah semoga kendalakendala itu bisa terselesaikan dengan baik :-}
ok biar post-nya nyambung sama judulnya, skarang gue mau bahas tentang barbie. dari dulu gue sukaaaaaa banget sama boneka barbie! gue dibeliin boneka barbie itu kayanya kelas 2 sd. dan sayang bgtbgt sama arbie gue itu. tapi berhubung sekarang udah gede dan males bgt main barnie2-an, jadi sekarang jarang main sama si barbie *sorrybarbie;-( tapi tetep masih suka dan cinta kok sama barbie. sekarang aja nge-post sambil nonton barbie hihi. dannn ada yang manggil gue barbie juga lohhh. terima kasih kepada N'nel yang mau manggil gue barbie ;')
oya sama mau ngasih liat gambar barbie yang tadi gue dapet waktu lagi surfing hoho :O

So Gergeous

Envy sama rambutnya :C

where is the l♥ve?

where is the love when i need it?
where is the love when i can't life without it?
where is the love when i cried coz i can't find it anymore?
where is the love? where?!

you know what i feel when i saw my friends got their love when they with their couple?
it's envy, sadness, shy, and many more
i just asked my self 'when you can get your love ha?'
and no one answer

hey search my love
give me my love
but no one tell me where is my love
maybe i forget about what love's mean
or maybe i REALLY dont know what love's mean

love is a warm hug you when you felt cold coz you have some problem
love is a sweet kiss that can make you can smile again
love is when you wait his mesg on your handphone when he doesnt replied your mesg for him
love is when you were happy when he invited you to have a date in saturday night
love is when he picked you up after school

is that love?
love can be so sweet (sweeter than chocolate's valentine maybe)
love can be so strong (stronger than ade ray maybe)
but love can be so destroy too (if he hurt your love when he went with his friends but she is a girl)
yeah that is love
with its warm but sometimes it can be very cold

p.s: wish i can find my REAL l♥ve oneday ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ
with l♥ve
audrey

aku

aku harus puas menjadi aku. walaupun terkadang aku iri pada yang lain. yang lebih cantik, lebih pinter, lebih keren, tapi aku ngga bisa kan jadi mereka. karna aku hanyalah aku. berada di tengah keluarga yang aku sayangi. bersama teman-temanku dan bestie-ku yang selalu perhatian sama aku.  sama adikku-aurell yang lucu dan sering banget aku cium. aku yang suka nyanyi2 ngga jelas sambil muterin rumah. aku yang emosional, egois, & jayus. aku yang sering curhat di blog ke-3ku ini (love you my blog) aku yang rambutnya sering ngembang nggakeruan kaya singa (seperti sekarang ini) aku yang berada di kelas 10-2 bilingual bersama teman-temanku yang pada galau (hehe._.)

hanya ada aku!
hanya menjadi aku!
hanya seorang aku!
dan hanya aku, yang akan mengubah hidupku!

love your self, cause anything you did, anything you felt -> it's you! n it'll never change until you change it by your self ♡

:>

lagi sebel. envy aja bawaannya. heran deh gue juga. tadi komik temen gue dirobek covernya sama ade gue (Aurell)--> walaupun udah ada 10 komik lebih yang dia robek, tapi heran ngga kapok2 deh dia. udah dirobek, malah dia yg nangis (stlh gue omelin). okelah she's just a kid. tapi jangan mentang2 kid terus bisa seenaknya dong? #abaikan. sebelumnya gue mau kerumah saskia sama dona buat nganterin tugas rangkaian listrik mtk (liburan guru merasa perlu memberi BANYAK tugas, agar muridnya tidak melupakan pelajaran). nyokap ngomel2. tapi untungnya (God Bless Me!) gue berhasil kabur dari kebosenan yang udah bikin setengah badan gue lumutan *oke lebay-_- tapi suer deh._.v bener2 bt dirumah liburan 3 hari! yaiyalah gimana ngga bt coba? liburan cuma diomelin nyokap-> ngerjain pr-> online dst, dst. yaaa emang ngga sepenuhnya begitu sih? tapikan sebagian besar begitu :( trus gue jalan, kerumah saskia, ngeprint tugas agama, n back to home.

loh loh? kok gue jadi curhat kaya begini sih? oke salah. gue lg kesel nih sama orang. nyebelin, sensi, sok ingggris, sok pinter, sok segawlanya lah. sumfah nyebelin banget! laganya itu loooh. yiaiks! sok deket sama semua orang gitu deh. ergh! mati aja deh. nggamau dihina, maunya ngehina. kalo ngomong nggatau tempat. mungkin dia udah ngatai semua orang yang dia kenal kali ya? ih pokoknya ngga bgt deh. sebenernya pengen gue remove, tapi ntar dia ngomong lagi ke semua orang kalo 'audrey nggasuka sm dia, terus ngeremove dia seenaknya' -_-
yah pokoknya gitu deh. intinya gue sebel sama dia titik ngga pake koma.

yaah cukup sekian deh. gue udah nuangin unek-unek, jadi ngeplong deh (sedikit). biarlah dia ya dia, gue ya gue. terserah dia mau hidup kaya gimana. just the way i am! sekian dan terima kasih :>

alone

sendiri itu sepi
sunyi
tak ada hingar bingar kehidupan
semua menghilang
sepi

bulu kudukku merinding
mencoba membayangkan sesuatu
tapi takbisa
semua pergi

nobody care's
nobody knows
nobody hears
nobody stay
nobody besides me
nobody arround me
they leave me
leave me alone
alone

takut
sendiri
putih
menghilang
sepi
dan aku terbangun dari mimpi

-_-

what did you do in free time? hff if that questiones for me, i just answered : nothin special. just make a lot of tweets, or looked at bored-timeline there. hey this is seurious ! that's the reason why i hate free time. it rather to study at school than holiday just stay at home for me. i just heard my mom's lecture about i-am-as-lazy-girl that just sit in front of the pc and type a lot of alphabets in chat, status on fb, or tweets. but that's the function of cyberworld, right ? to entertain us that dont-have-a-fun-holiday here. its 23:38 now, and im not sleeepy yet. maybe because i slept afternoon yet. haaaaaaaaaaaaa what should i do now ?! my mom start to command me to sleep but im not sleepy! ok enough for my blogging tonight. wish i can write something unimportant for this blog again tomorrow (tomorrow is holiday). keep smiling ˆ⌣ˆ

my first archieve

hai! nice to meet you again blogger ;) ini blogku yang ke-3 lho. yang pertama lupa pasword, yang kedua? juga sama -_-v emang dari dulu sifat gue itu pikun banget (dan heran ngga berubah2 smp sekarang) and then, here i am! in my THIRD BLOG (semoga ngga lupa pasword lagi ya allah) em yaa apa lagi ya? intinya sih mau ngasih tau, kalo audrey anindita balik lagi ke blog hehehe (nggapenting ._.) ok sekian dulu deh. wish i'll write something GREAT in this blog ;-D bubbay bloggers