don't grow up. it's a trap!

good news! i've passed those mess' (re: national exam) a week ago and it's a relief i feel inside my heart now. WHOPS not all relief. i haven't know what kind of score i'm gonna see in my report card of last semester yet. and well, i wanna share about that famous national exam in this year, 2013. i thought this is the worst nat-exam that have ever been happened in indo (if you know what i mean, indonesians). we have 20 package kind of questions which means we really are NOT allowed to cheat with the others. ups it's not the end until there, the question and answer sheet are in one package so to answer the question, we have to tear it up first. i mean, oh c'mon! 20 package of questions is more than enough to mess our brain and heart all up and down... but it didn't make matter since i've passed it (hopefully) well and swear to god  i'm going to enjoy my gonna-be-loooooong holiday now :) *thanks for all the prayers dear readers*

oh well, and today is zella's birthday! she is turning 18th today and i'm like 'oh c'mon dude, i just took a photo for my identity card of legitimatilly an indonesian and she is already 18!' time flew too fast baby. but after all, i had a good day. we ate pizzas and blew the candles (not we but she is) and walked and walked and sang in karaoke and back home. i gave her my handmade as a gift and i guessed she likes it *glad* can't wait for the next good day :)

but i feel like there's something missing here. i miss my all classmates like so much. we finally ended up being 12th graders. we are not required to study in our class anymore. no more homeworks, no more cheat, no more laugh in class, no more nag from teachers, no more fight, no more. oh so sad :,( before this, we want everything goes fastly, just for not doing assignments, studying, and yadda yadda. but after all have passed, we want it back again (not we maybe but especially me). i miss all the time, the memories. yap the memories. it will only be memories to keep in mind, will never be replayed. oh shittttt i hate to grow up. i've ever seen someone's quote said "don't grow up, kid. it's a trap" and i just realized it's a true. yes it is absolutely a trap :(

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konichiwa! it's Ramadhan now and i've done my first fasting pretty well (thanks god). i prayed tarawih today with aisyah, one of my favourites. and just as usual, we talked about many things. and finally we got the point that we are same. we both love a boy (different boy) but we are too ashamed to admit it ahaha *high five*. we dont know how long too keep this feeling or maybe we dont know, should we keep hiding (eventho' its hurt) or saying out about this? any suggest? ;-p

ah skip that. yesterday, me and my friends visited Key. it has been a year he left us. may you rest in peace Key, we'll never forget to send pray for you. we miss him. a lot. it's kinda weird when 2 years ago we still can have together break fasting, but now? all we can do now is just visited him in his peacest place beside god :-)

aand we have a 'big day' tomorrow! wanna know? i'll tell you later okay. it's still a secret hohoho.

oh by the way i want to send apologizes to all of you for my words which is kinda hurting you, my bad act (yayaya i know-_-) and many more. let's celebrate Ramadhan with spread the love and peace by forgive each other. it'll be nice if all of you can forgive me, thank you very much strangersss.

enjoy your limited time folkies
X
drey

bonne nuit

you couldn't imagine how i miss blogging pretty much. and now here i am! have i told you that im in frustation situation? of course not. but im frustate, desperate, and ugh everything bad! its not about guy i love, but its about the lessons at school. in 2nd sm, my physic teacher command us to presentate all the matter from archimedes law until thermodynamic 2. she divided us into 10 groups and each of group have different matter but connected each other. and i got group 9 with heat capacity of gas matter. and we just count days until i and my group (bude and uray) presentate it. o god im so afraid i'll fail (wish thats not happent). theres some matter i dont understand about heat capacity but tomorrow i'll consultate about it to my teacher. whooo00000ooa! i feel like wanna scream and leave all the pressures! but i kept on motivate my self that i can do the best *fighting* support me and wish me all the luckiest!

and anyway (ehem) im happy today. guess what? i met him. the-guy-i-liked. my senior *blushing* we looked each other anddddddd...... ok it just looked. i didnt greet him, just smile (my best-est smile of course). and yea i like it hehehe. i know whats in your mind right now. you must think that im a stupid girl. a guy i liked was in front of me, but i couldnt say anything even it just 'hi'. ok so sorry if im that shy hehehe:$

fyi: i'll have loooooooong holiday when my seniors in the 3rd grade have national exam (GOOD LUCK MY SENIORS! esp. you (ehem)) na na na na ey. oh and I LOVE JUSTIN BIEBER VERY VERY MUCH <3333333 YOU'RE THE SWEETEST GUY EVERRRR! if you were my boyfriend ughh (you should listened his new song BOYFRIEND) his voices are hotter than before!

well that is all. wish me luck for all the days i'll through.

Xxxx